I wish I would have been slow to anger this morning. Instead, I snapped at my son for stepping on my already injured toe. Of course it was an accident, but my knee-jerk reaction was a little harsh. My, how I need to practice this verse.
On a once in a blue moon occasion, I was shopping by myself two days ago. I had taken a much anticipated trip to Hobby Lobby, and one of their buggies took a mean gash out of my pinky toe. It looked to be healing fine, so I left it exposed after my shower. Not a good idea. Nathan was showing me some karate moves this morning when he rammed his tennis shoe right into my poor pinky toe, opening the wound all over again. I yelled, "OUCH, Nathan watch what you're doing!!!" Then a smidgen calmer, "I know it was an accident but you don't have to be acting crazy all the time." I finished brushing his hair while I composed myself, and told him to finish what he was trying to tell me. As he started, he began to cry. I pulled him close and hugged him reassuring him that I knew it was an accident and I didn't mean to react that way. I know he felt really bad for hurting me, especially after he saw my toe bleeding again. But my initial reaction made him feel worse.
How I wish I could control those initial reactions better. I never knowingly want to hurt my children's feelings. As I looked at my toe this morning, I saw how much farther I have to go. Then I heard Matt Redman on the radio discussing his story behind the song, "10,000 Reasons." (one of my favorite songs). He explained Psalm 103 had been the key verse behind the song because the Psalmist can't seem to stop talking about all the many reasons he has to praise God. Before I even got home from taking the kids to school, there were tears streaming down my face. Perhaps, if I were more thankful for all the blessings in my life, my knee-jerk reactions who be a little different. I opened my Bible and read Psalm 103. There is no telling how many times I have read this chapter, but oh how beautiful it was this morning. Thank God that he knows I am formed of dust and has compassion on me.(vs.14) Perhaps it would benefit my children more, if I did the same for them.
I am humbled this morning because of a crazy incident concerning a hurt toe and the beautiful words of Psalm 103, given to me at just the right time. It's good to be "taken down a notch" once in a while, and no-one can do that better than God.
Listen to "10,000 Reasons" and count your many blessings. Even in the midst of trials or just the everyday mundane, there's something we can thank God for. After all, the sun came up this morning.
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